don't plan, don't try, just DO it

times after times, things after things, hopes after hopes...it's like a never ending cycle.......it's called life.

it's been months since i am longing to write a post.........longings after longings. and today i finally decided to "break;" this loop. procrastination, shilly-shally......call it anything, it's everyone's companion. no matter how active, no matter how agile we are, we tend to delay things, i am no exception. i do, i do it many times.....sometimes intentionally, sometimes consequently.

we all have heard the term 'priority list' and believe me if you go and ask anyone "what's yours?", you will immediately get one....everyone keeps it. but the sad thing is, most often than not it's just kept unattended. i am not complaining, how can i? b'coz i sail in the same boat. but then at times things make you realize.....you need to check your priority list, you need to review it, you need to act on them.

this post may already be sounding like a "self-complain note", maybe, maybe not. actually yes. it is. when i sit alone (i do it very often), i talk to self......i realize........i review my list........i re-prioritize...........and then make a plan of actions.......i feel happy then. but then again i get a feeling………how to priorities plan's'. tough act, but i think i am managing to.

i have been reading a lot, i read a lot, books, articles, mails, editorials, all kind of stuffs that is in a language i understand. reading keeps me ticking, same as what music does to me, it keeps me alive. i remember few years back i was reading a book titled 'gods are meeting and you are invited', written by one of my relatives. i came across a page which dealt with the notion of "high.esteem-higher.esteem-highest.esteem-high.esteem-low.esteem-no.esteem cycle'. and i always remember it whenever i come across such a picture around me, inside me. i see this picture very often. it says, there are times in life when we feel good and at that very moment our esteem is at a very high level, then we feel better and then best raising our esteem to its peak. we feel like we are going to win this world with the inner confidence, inner belief.....but then it fades.........fades very fast and we feel fallen on the ground, sometimes even below. and the funniest thing is that this period comes every now and then...it's like a woman's cycles, though irregular ones.

last week i did something, which i have been longing to do for years. no need explaining how would that have felt...felt before doing and felt after doing it. a flood of relief flew towards me, at least.

i have been talking to a close friend on this topic and in each of the discussions a line comes out....."i wish it's not too late". this is a common feeling when we think of things we are longing to do, but hastate/avoid due to 'situations'. let's face it, we all love to play the time game. we all wish to get that 'extra' few days before making the move. how many times have we really gone ahead with things we want to do immediately? you will say, i do it many times; see i wanted to do this and i did it. then i ask you to list me 3 things you want to do but are hesitating.....and no surprises there would be 5+ things. you are smiling? me too.

sometimes it's not the result but it's the attitude that matters the most. we hesitate to do things, we refrain ourselves from actions because we are afraid of the unpleasant probability. it's not wrong being afraid but it's wrong being distracted. don't be. don't let the fear, the unseen deviate you. keep them besides and move. keep them behind and hit. keep them away and live.

i know reading all this now, one's hormonal level will increase and suddenly a sense of excitement will come out shouting high............"yes, i am gonna do it". you will come out of your closet and may do it too. i wish things work out. but still the question is how long will this attitude last?

i think by this time you can make out that this post is again related to "the value of time". and if you have browsed this site, you can find out that there is already a 4 month old post titled "it's now or never".

i just wish we all, including me, realize the value of time at every step of life. and act when its needed the most.

i finish this post with the saying, "don't plan, don't try, just DO it".